5 Things That Make Me Happy Today

I have been making myself feel a little glum lately. No rhyme or reason; I'm just doing it-so today, for me, I am making a quick "happy" list...

1. Hearing Andrew and Zoey laugh
2. The fact that Christmas is less than 90 days away(this also makes me panic a little)
3. Cuddle time with Zoey(even though it's because she doesn't feel good)
4. Peaches
5. The fact that this list says "5" instead of "10"..it's just too hard right now to think of 10.

Hi. I'm Sam. And I am addicted to reading blogs.

Blogs are dangerous. You think to yourself "I have a few minutes. I need a little inspiration. Let me see here..." That was over an hour ago. Was I inspired..totally. Did I laugh...yes. Did I cry...well, I teared up a little. But I still feel like time was wasted when I could be making something, eating something, or even sleeping with something..I'm cold-I meant sleeping with a heating pad-don't be dirty ;) Anyways, here is my newest inspirational thought I found on a blog by Kayce Rehn of Big Picture Scrapbooking...
The Invitation

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another
to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you
from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

-Oriah

Ooohhh yeah baby = I got a facial and all the other fun stuff since then

What a crazy past couple of weeks! I will start at my wonderful Mother's Day present. I got to have a facial, pedicure and brow wax...I was at the place for over 3 hrs. I didn't believe those people who said "You will love getting a facial. It's better than a pedicure." I am now one of "those people". However, I don't see the physical benefits as much as a pedicure. What an awesomely fun time! My sister was even nice enough to watch Zoey for me. That was my June 16th.
Saturday June 19th was the Clark family birthday/Father's Day party. I asked if I could be in charge. I was very proud of the invitations that I made and sent out(however close to the party that was) I made a fun bean bag toss game(with Andrew's help) I will have to post of picture..when I figure out how to do that on a blog). We had the party at Veteran's Memorial Park in West Jordan. Man, the park was absolutely packed and the wind was blowing like crazy! I was FREAKING out!! Andrew asked me if I had to go home and sit in my room until I calmed down.(this just made me mad) But the food was good and the family was fun. All in all I think that Ellie, Zayne, Zoey and myself had a rather enjoyable party-except for the fact that I forgot plates, blankets,chairs and my card table wouldn't fit into my already packed car. Thankfully other family members saved the day. I also look very fetching wearing a pink and white shirt accessorized with blue and green frosting from a cake that slid into my stomach as I was trying to lift it. aaaahhhh fun times.
Then during that next week I got my birthday present..a beautiful cherry dining table and chairs that we bought from our neighbors. It is over 50 yrs old, but it is still sooo pretty and now I have a matching table and chairs for the first time in 7 yrs!
Then on Friday the 25th I got my Andrew/Zoey party. We went to the Redwood Drive-In to see "Knight and Day" and "The A-Team". We had Taco Bell(my request) and the movies were great!( I only slept for like 15 min of the A-Team, but that is great since I normally sleep for the whole 2nd movie) Andrew is so awesome to me. I know he was tired but he was so determined to celebrate my birthday how I wanted.
On Saturday the 26th I had my Mom/Crys/Sam girl's night out party. SOOO fun! We went to Zupas and we went to see "The Bounty Hunter" with my pretty boy Gerard Butler. They are a lot of fun to hang out with. I am always so sick with how much we eat when we do these parties, but I just love them soo much!!!
Then on Sunday(my actual birthday) we had my family-Mom, Dad, Crys, Steve and Serenity over for dinner to celebrate Zoey's and mommy's birthdays-after much begging and pleading. I wanted to make the dinner for once. We had YUMMY chicken enchiladas(recipe from allrecipes.com-thanks to Emily for telling me about this site) Mexican Rice, salad and cake with berries for dessert. Zoey and I were so spoiled for our birthdays.
Monday the 28th Andrew, Zoey and Mommy went to Sugarhouse park to have Zoey's 1 yr old pictures and a couple of family pictures taken with April Delamare. The two I have seen so far are super cute!
And finally today June 29th is my Zoey's first birthday!! She is all grown up now-well as grown up as a 1 yr old can be. I love being her mommy more than I ever thought that I could, and Andrew is an AMAZING daddy. We celebrated by going to lunch at the Olive Garden with our good friend Sherrie. I ended the meal with my black-tie mousse cake(yummy).
Wow. Now tomorrow we will GET to go have a 1 year check-up and get shots. What and ending to a great couple of weeks.

My new philosophy(or rather outlook) on life

"The great use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it." -William James

So far my goals for the month of June aren't being met very well. I was so proud of myself the first two days-I hadn't spent any money at all(you usually have to go somewhere to spend $) Then, today I went to a craft store. I spent less than $10(which is AWESOME for me) But I didn't get everything I needed/wanted. I don't even want to talk about the grocery store. My goal with that place is to maybe try the whole Walmart price matching thing or at least plan my meals in advance so that I don't just buy things willy-nilly.
I find it so frustrating that it would be when I make a whole bunch of goals that not even ONE is being reached. I know, I know...start small, just start with one goal BLAH, BLAH, BLAH. No we are talking life transformation here people. I am more of a "take it all or leave it all" kind of gal.

So, with all of my complaining out of the way, I have good news for me. I read a short novel(fictional) yesterday. "Spare Change" by Aubrey Mace. For the most part, it was motivational and uplifting to me(the beginning and the body were really good, but the ending kind of bored me.)

Anyways, this leads me to my new philosophy. I need to stop examining all of the bad and looking at faults and apologizing for things that don't really need an apology. None of those things will "outlast life" Only good things like happiness, love, family and good friends will make it for us(well me) Whatever gets accomplished in a day-thats it. Whatever doesn't will be waiting for me tomorrow. Maybe I will try out the whole idea of getting something done now and then you can play later. My mom was always saying that growing up,and it drove me crazy-it still does, I am just now realizing how true it is. That and something about attitude is 80%....LOVE ya Mom!

I wish me luck with my new outlook on life and maybe this can be the start of something amazing. Woohoo for me!

I will be good...well at least better

I am going to start June off on the right foot. I will start a blog and hold myself only accountable to me. I will be good in the following areas-finances, diet and exercise, cooking, cleaning, crafting, journaling(hence BLOG), being a friend, and maybe if I try really hard I can tap into my hidden outward appearance keg.

I am hoping that by starting with all of these "I" statements that I will feel empowered to explore, create and expand my life. Empower....right.